I remember what it was like to pretend.
I used to pretend a lot.
I used to pretend I wasn't some weird New Age psychic Empath.
I used to pretend that I wasn't hearing voices in my head telling me which way to go.
I used to pretend I was lost.
And I used to pretend all of that simply because I was being who I was expected to be. I don't really know who expected it but there it was, expectation.
And the desire to fit in.
And the desire to succeed.
And the desire to appear normal.
So I'd make up things that I didn't know just to have the opportunity to appear normal. I'd snatch up classes and books and all assortments of shelf help and smart business tools.
What I've discovered after being an Entrepreneur for about 16 years now is this... I KNEW EVERYTHING I NEEDED TO KNOW BEFORE I LOOKED OUTSIDE FOR ANSWERS.
"Your intuition will tell you where you need to go; it will connect you with people you should meet; it will guide you toward work that is meaningful for you - work that brings you joy, work that feels right for you." - Shakti Gawain
Yeah, about that. Work comes with some extra expectations on top of our personal ones doesn't it? Like somehow we HAVE to know more and be smarter.
I knew everything I needed to know before I looked outside for answers.
Because if I got quiet, my intuition knew exactly what to do next. If I had followed the small tiny little not-so-glamorous not-so-result-oriented actions that my inner voice was telling me to take?
I don't know what my trajectory would have been... but I know what it has been since I really truly started listening and taking the steps that don't make sense.
And they have been my most successful profitable and easy years.
So consider this during the week...
Are you really listening?
What Lights You Up?
There's a town about 3 hours from my house called Quartzite, Arizona. It's a dry dusty one street little place that isn't open in the summer, except the gas stations and fast food for those of us who travel the highway from California into Arizona.
My favorite store in the world, called Gem World, is in this middle of nowhere town. It's nothing more than a huge warehouse filled with dust from the road and a whole ton of randomness... and the most spectacular rocks and crystals and beads at seriously ridiculously low prices.
It's like heaven on earth for me.
I leave dirty, with a bag filled with $200 worth of beads and rocks and stones every time I go.
And the twinkle in my eye is undeniable.
I can't wait to go play with my treasures.
In fact, the only reason I started making Malas (aside from the fact that I actually use them of course) was because I had so many stone beads I just couldn't justify another trip to Gem World without having done SOMETHING with them.
Every time I touch those beads I twinkle.
Every time I see the incredible crystals I've brought home, I twinkle.
Every time I turn on the salt lamps and selenite lamps I've gotten there, I twinkle.
So yes, my rocks and my connection to how they came into my life... and Gem World - inspire me.
From a place of inspiration and twinkly eyes, we can create anything. From a full soul filled with joy, magic can happen.
What lights you up?
And can you connect with that spark just a little each day so that the glitter seeps into what you're creating in the world?
I sent an email out today to hundreds of people who had signed up for my book writing list...apologizing.
Mostly because I didn't "get it".
See when I wrote Writing The Damn Book it wasn't because I really wanted to get into the helping people write business. It was because (warning-naked honest truth there) I was tired of everyone asking me for advice on how to write and finish their books and I figured I could hand them a book and move on.
Yes, I've done book retreats and support clients through the process, but it felt more like a side thing. A really juicy amazingly fulfilling side thing, one that I have found to be completely in my zone of genius, but not something I did as my main business.
I really just wanted to give people a resource that was more spiritually aligned with completing a book so that I could get back with my 'real' business.
I didn't see how this fit into my true purpose.
There was no strategy. No really smart path. It just...was.
Meanwhile I have people signing up every single day for that list, for resources and guidance and I didn't know what to do with them. With you. I felt the pressure to perform somehow but I didn't feel the desire...
And then it hit me...
That I talk about writing a book as the biggest piece of self development I've ever done. And the coaching and mentoring I do with my book clients is so deep and transformational that it's really NOT about the book...
It's about the MESSAGES. Becoming clear with who the authors are being and living into the messages they are infusing into what they are writing. It's about their actual transformation that is required to write a book of TRUE substance and change.
And hundreds of messages dying to be out in the world were sitting there dying on my email list.
Those messages, YOUR messages, and YOUR transformation completely and totally are a part of my mission and purpose. It is not separate, something I do on the side.
So I get it now.
And I'm IN.
And I'm creating content and resources to send out weekly to my authors. Because this shit's important, because writing and publishing the damn books are important... to fundamentally change how intuition, empathy, spirituality and energy work in the world we need to actively be bringing these messages out - and we need to be transforming from within to help facilitate the changes in the world we are meant to create.
Let's write people. Let's write....
This past month brought a lot of change in my business and somehow in the mix I found myself in the middle of a super fast paced flow. Every day had things to do - I recorded what felt like 1,386 videos, wrote 8,532 emails and posts, created an entire 13 month calendar for MasterSoul University, another for Writing the Damn Book AND another for my entire Empire (aka my businesses).
Okay the numbers are a complete and total exaggeration... and it felt a lot like that. I went from a rankin' full stop to a g-force rocket ship ride in a matter of moments.
Honestly, I had moments where I didn't think I'd get it all done, where I felt the overwhelm and confusion of actually having to work.
But it was different too. Because those moments didn't last. I kept slowing myself down and taking time away even when I felt I didn't have any time. I reminded myself daily that the magic happens not when we're pushing but when we're allowing.
And here's what I really learned...
**Surrender doesn't only happen when things are painfully slow. Surrender is also necessary when your life feels fast.**
My team and I had opportunities to work our asses off to make deadlines and DO. And we actively chose not to. We could have pushed and forced our way through lists. We didn't.
In everything we did, we reminded ourselves of ease and grace. Because everything we were creating needed to be in alignment energetically first.
Lots of deep breathing.
Lots of walking away.
Lots of getting down to only essentials and leaving the rest for later.
Lots of naps followed by...
Lots of coffee.
Lots of reframing.
Lots of second and third takes.
Lots of calling in.
Lots of imagination.
And yes, lots of videos and writing and editing and lots of chatting with people.
What looked like lots of progress was actually created by taking lots of highly intentional little steps.
"Do you wish to be great? Then begin by being. Do you desire to construct a vast and lofty fabric? Think first about the foundations of humility. The higher your structure is to be, the deeper must be its foundation" -Saint Augustine
Our greatest success with releasing MasterSoul University is that we did it and it felt really amazing each step of the way. It is in service of my Purpose... to fundamentally change the conversation around energy, intuition, spirituality and energy in the realm of business - to have it be FIRST always.' And it was created from a place of BEING.
Walk the talk. Be the message.
Thanks for being on the ride with me...