It all started about a month ago. This is a little personal but you know I never pull punches with you... I had a full meltdown in the car. It was one of those irrational breakdowns where I was doing what one of my friends refers to as the ugly cry - where your face gets all scrunchy and red and blotchy and the tears were just flowing down my face. I had just left this meeting with a full room of brilliant entrepreneurs, all successful, happy, making differences in the world so I was totally inspired - and completely and totally in comparison mode because I didn't feel worthy. Who was I to be networking with these people who were so clearly 'above' me, that knew what they were doing and where they were going? The self talk that came pouring out of the recesses of my mind and out of my eyes was so abusive that had I been saying it out loud to a child I would have needed to call CPS on myself.
Yep, it gets better. Once I was done dumping out all of the horrible stories I tell myself about how much I suck, I got angry. I threw a little tantrum and told (more like yelled at) the Universe to flipping do something. I demanded a push and help to that next level of my business. I felt it in my heart that I was ready to be that person who could play a bigger game. It was a doozy of a breakdown but afterwards I just felt, well different. Free-er and clearer, like I had just cleaned my house and could smell how clean it was.
When I look back I realize that all of my breakdowns are really breakthroughs - a way of releasing the things blocking us from the next step.
It's only been a few weeks and I've been in constant action ever since I was driving around like a crazy person - gosh I hope none of you saw me yelling at the sky on the freeway. I keep getting these inspired ideas and then even more importantly - I have been ACTING on them, in full faith because when you are truly manifesting what you ask for, the Universe responds with opportunities. And if you don't act on those opportunities you're telling the Universe that you don't really want what you asked for.
It's like ordering a pizza and sending it back every time the delivery boy shows up at your door. Why would you do that? Eat the pizza!
The pizza I've been eating? So far I've cultivated a community for my fellow coaches and have about 140 members as of this writing (more keep popping in every day), I've started a weekly radio show, I'm about to publish a digital magazine, I've created a joint coaching program (go register for the free callhere), been asked to be a speaker in a TeleSummit with other coaches I admire and have attracted great new private coaching clients.
All of that was in the last few weeks.
WTF? Perhaps I've lost my mind but here's the thing... I passionately ASKED for my business to grow during that meltdown, for clarity of what I wanted to create, and for the next level success. I asked for help. And the Universe responded with opportunities and options and trusted me to grab them. Yes, I've had to do things that have been beyond my comfort zone, stretching me to my outer limits. Perhaps that will be another blog post...
The most important part was that I said YES to the opportunities FIRST and have figured out how SECOND. And I'm having the time of my life! I cannot wait to get started on my 'work' every day. I'm inspired and energized and totally in the flow because I'm trusting myself. I had to release all that self talk and then take leaps of faith and then the world just opened up in front of me.
So bring on that breakdown and eat that pizza! But most importantly be open to the opportunities that surround you every day and be prepared to leap for them. Your world will never be the same if you trust. Tell me what opportunities you're willing to say Yes to below and what you're willing to do to truly manifest what you want in your life...