I don't normally share my newsletters here...but this one was emotional and I talk about the roller coaster of Love and Loss and knew I needed to share it here too. It's a long read-writing is how I process.
Are Love and Loss Really Different Messages?
Last week was magical & love filled as "Your Inner Council" was released into the world.
Yesterday was shocking as I was suddenly mourning the loss of a friend.
The emotional roller coaster I've been experiencing has been intense, both highs and lows.
Love is the core of both
Last week, Monday, I rolled out my book quietly to a few dedicated followers. These 'Book Angels' as I now call them got an advance copy of the book so that when we rolled out on Wednesday they were all ready to help me spread the word.
What I didn't expect was that on Wednesday 09-09 when 'Your Inner Council" went public, those Angels showered me with love and praise. I only posted 1 post on Facebook and all day long the post was shared and reposted and new posts kept popping up. There were reviews on Amazon being given with 5 stars. It was bringing tears to my eyes to read the impact of my words.
Then it wasn't just my Angels in the game. It was YOU and my community. The outpouring was intense. People I didn't know congratulating me. I could FEEL everything. Every time a line was read and appreciated I could feel it.
I hit my upper limit of love over and over and over again.
Then the days after came. The let down... like the day after Christmas, like no day would ever top that release day.
Cracked wide open, I felt vulnerable. I felt the snap-back moment from having stretched so far to receive so much love. I was cranky and oh so tired. I collapsed emotionally, physically, spiritually and hid out for the weekend. I read some epic-fantasy magic novels and stayed in my jammies all day. I would feel myself coming back but I could still feel that after shock.
Monday I woke up feeling like I was ready to create again, feeling whole and ready to spread the love. Instead, I got the shocking news that a beautiful friend of mine was killed. Replacing the tears of joy and love, or the exhaustion of feeling so much I cried tears of a different kind of love, the tears of love lost.
While my heart was hurting I could only remember the love. I could only remember the love I had for him. I could only see the outpouring of people around the world posting photos of him with his big goofy awe-inspiring smile. I was surrounded once again by a tremendous amount of love.
That was his legacy. That love was something he gave and received every single day. He lived his soul's music out loud and created more love in the world.
And I realized something about myself...that the day I released my book and received that massive love, was also the day that I created my own legacy, that I was living it out loud.
See, every time we open ourselves to fulfilling our calling, our mission, every time we create, express, allow, we open ourselves up to love.
My friend Mark was talking about the lessons he's taking away from our friend passing and from other men he's admired, "These men are, for me, the embodiment of the phrase “Generous of Spirit,” because they gave without thinking. If you were fortunate enough to give to them, every morsel was the most exquisite gift. Even in receiving, they gave."
So love and loss are not so different.
When we live our lives 'Generous of Spirit' we create a place where love is the commonality in all things we touch.
So, thank you all for supporting my Release Day, for showing me YOUR generosity and your love. I hope that I can respond in kind plus plus and that some day in the very near future, your life will open up to receive it in spades.