I Don't Know How...

I don't know how...

Right now I've got a book about to be available tomorrow (Unconventional Wisdom...).
I've got another book that will be available on 09-09 (Your Inner Council).
I'm filling a program (UnTraining Program).
I've started calling in the players for my next joint book and I've started going through my stories for my next solo-book.
I've got amazing existing clients to support.
Plus all my family stuff.

It's a lot of little details and work and busy...
and there was a point a couple of weeks ago when I got really anxious.

Because I didn't know HOW I was going to do it all, or even if I knew HOW to do it period. If I was capable, knowledgeable enough. If I had enough time.

I started beating myself up for waiting, for committing, for being is such a frenzied state of doing.

And then I stopped.
Because at the core of it all was that the question that was making me crazy was the one question that I never needed to know the answer to... "HOW"?

I don't know how I'll get it all done.

AND I will either get stuff done or I won't.
Honestly, I bet it will all happen one thing at a time like always.

I don't know how to do a lot of the stuff on the list.

AND I will either figure it out or I won't.
Honestly, I can figure out most everything with enough googling or people asking.

I don't know how I'll fill my program.
AND It will either fill or it won't.
Honestly, I trust that it will.

I don't know if I'll sell even one book.
AND It will either sell or it won't.
Honestly, I have enough friends and family that love to support me that both books will do quite well.

When we get stressed out about imaginary futures it's usually because some part of us is tied up in the results, in the how it's going to happen. But we don't need to know how in advance.

'How' is our brain blocking us from what we know to be true...

You know what works? Just doing it, figuring it out, being in the middle of the experience, trusting yourself. This is the moment of active surrender, when we release the 'HOW' and just keep practicing, just keep showing up, just allowing yourself to not have to know the details.

Because the magic in life isn't in knowing it's secrets, it's in experiencing them.