So yesterday I was being supported via email by my spiritual coach... (big day today for me in case you missed it) and we were talking about how next week and then 2 weeks after I'm going to be in a room with a whole bunch of people and energy. I tend to go into energy overwhelm and feel everyone around me, to the point where for the first 24 hours all I want to do is cry.
So she said "When I work with a lot of people, either in person or on air, I just try to hold the idea of Oneness. We’re all One… so it doesn’t matter if there’s 150 Ones or 40 Ones… it’s all One:One."
I replied with a yes AND it is really overwhelming. It's so much all at once. And then she nailed me... ready for this reality bender?
"And… the thing is…
All that energy is always there.
You just don’t pay attention to it.
There’s no escape from Oneness, from this connection we have to everything, all the time.
So, you notice it in the room.
But in reality, you are always, always in that much energy, even if you are sitting quietly by yourself.
The good news is, we’re One.
The challenging news is, if you’re sensitive, you can’t ever escape the energy.
Even when someone reads your book, you feel their energy, their thoughts, their emotions.
No escape! Oneness 24/7, forever. "
FUCK... now all I can do is FEEL everything. I had no idea how many walls I had built up on my little isolated hill, pretending to be alone. We are never alone.
Today I'm crying as the outpouring of love is coming in from the release of my book. I can feel all of it. And even as I sit here saying that my heart has hit it's upper limit of how much I allow myself to receive, I know there's so much more available.... sending you all love back. Did you feel it?