Worth More Than I Can Afford

I've never been able to afford my coach. I remember crying with relief when my first coach created a payment program for her $750 6-month journey because I didn't know where the money was going to come from and the payment plan made it possible.

And I committed myself to going into the program whether I had the money or not. I went on a treasure hunt, selling old phones and taking on a couple of projects that weren't ideal. It's not always the most responsible decisions that I make. Sometimes I made spending decisions that were not right for me, that were "wastes". That book writing program that cost $1000 (do you see a book from me yet?) or the hundreds of other things that I bought and paid for that I couldn't afford.

The thing is I bought those things because I thought I NEEDED them. I didn't. I needed someone who didn't need me to need them. They wanted me to fulfill my OWN needs.

When I got the RIGHT coach, everything changed. Not because I could afford him, not because my business took off and I was creating big launches or impressive business building awesomeness - but because of the invisible shifts that were taking place within me. The ease and grace that there is no way to quantify. No striving. More self trust.

It's not that I don't have rough days - I do. 
It's just that I know who I am. 
I know what I'm capable of. 
I know that I have someone holding that higher vision of me even when I forget.

And that's more valuable than what I pay.
Because my dreams and my visions are worth more than I can afford. They are something I can't imagine NOT buying into, whatever the cost.

I've never been able to afford to pay for coaching. AND I will forever make those sacrifices because I refuse to forget who I AM and what I can BE.